amore intenso

Could you love someone so much so intensely? I thought the answer to this question was always no until he came into my life. We started out as best friends but now when I look at him, I realise that he has become my everything. If he left then I would have nothing to live for. He makes me feel something so amazing I can't put it into words. When he looks at me and all I feel is butterflies in my stomach. When he texts me, I can't help but smile. When he talks to me, I get goosebumps. 

Wanna know the crazy part?

He and I are broken!

Broken beyond repair, and I am well aware of that fact but still..dil h ki manta hi nhi.

He came into my life, made me laugh, became the reason for my smile, became my whole world and then left! Just like that. Gone. With him left my smile, but that's ok.

Happens ig...

I once read somewhere: Don't cry because it ended, smile because it happened.

Trust me I am trying my best but how do you hold up, how do you not feel the pain when a part of you is missing. When someone who was your smile, your enthusiasm, your will, your everything is not there anymore. When your life feels purposeless without that one special person. 

I don't think you can